"I committed to play volleyball because the coach felt so welcoming and caring. Until I was actually on campus then it’s like a light switch. She allowed the culture on the team to tell you how your faith should be, bully you, and you werent even allowed to have other friends other than your teammates because that was what was instilled in everyone’s mind is that you had to be with teammates 24/7. She gave me a larger size sweatshirt and told me to eat more to fit into it, after I had asked for a medium. When it came to volleyball skill and knowledge, the assistant coach at the time was the one with all the technique skill and knowledge on the game and she was more the motivational coach. She even snapped at our assistant once in front of the team because he was actually coaching us on what to do better and not just reading a quote to motivate us. A few years after I stopped playing she saw me in the campus cafeteria and asked me if I was married or pregnant yet? Basically implying that I was a disaster or a mess since I stopped playing volleyball. Just sad that to this day, this is what I remember from her being my coach. It’s very sad how long the reality of it stays with you and how now I realize how much better I deserved and I should have transferred."